This week's happiness {and a rant}

Things that have made me happy this week...

Creme eggs <3

I can't even count how many of these I've eaten over the past two weeks but you seriously can't beat a cadbury's creme egg. Maybe they're one of the silly reasons I wouldn't ever want to move abroad... cadbury's chocolate is the best! I even got given one by the vicar at church on Easter Sunday, how lovely is that?!

Turning the skiing dream into a reality...

I can't quite believe that we have finally booked our skiing holiday... It's officially happening, woohoo! We drove down to Surrey last Friday and had a yummy Good Friday lunch with our pals Emma & Matt. Then in the afternoon we got searching for holidays. I've got to admit I had no idea where to even start on our holiday search because I'm a total newbie to the skiing world but after a while of full-on ski holiday searching {accompanied by wine of course} we finally made a decision. We're all booked for a week in Les Arcs in France for January 2016. Bring it on!! 

 

It looks so incredibly beautiful, I can't wait to ski with these views... <3

Wellies & muddy walks

I loved being home in Hertfordshire for a couple of days over the Easter weekend. We went for a long walk starting at the Cricket Club in Berkhamsted, over the fields and through the woods to our most favourite tree in Frithsden. This tree {which has now sadly fallen down} was used in the Harry Potter movies, cool huh?! On our walk we heard woodpeckers and saw baby lambs and the cutest shire horses. The countryside air never fails to make me feel so much happier.

I'm writing this blogpost on my phone as I'm commuting home from my third nightshift, so apologies if there are any grammatical errors or if it's just plain boring! Tired is an understatement when trying to describe how I feel right now. I've had so little sleep the past few days, about 5 hours maximum each day and then working 13 hour shifts in between. It takes it's toll after a while, I can't say I feel very human at the moment. I've got my fourth and final nightshift tonight, I can't wait to get home and have some sleep.

It's been super warm outside this week, even if I have missed all of it because I've been asleep! Any sunshine that continues over the weekend would be very welcome. Not that I have the time to enjoy it though, I've got an essay to finish for university...

It really does feel as though the work never stops! I've been feeling very emotional over the past couple of weeks if I'm honest, it's so exhausting working full-time, let alone whilst studying part-time on top. It leaves me with very little time to do normal things like catch up with friends, sustain a healthy relationship and keep the flat tidy. I carry around with me a permanent feeling of dread that I'm not living up to the perfect girlfriend standards that I think Rob deserves, and a constant guilt that I have abandoned the housework for days on end. I haven't seen Rob properly for nearly a week now and the flat is a total mess. There is so much washing to do, so much clutter! And then there's my friends. I feel like some of the closest friends I once had are now becoming distant because they don't truly understand how chaotic and unkind my working hours can be. They probably just assume that I'm not bothered, but this is so not the case. 

I've got a million and one things whizzing through my brain, especially with all that's going on with our house purchase. We're moving to Rob's Mum's in less than two weeks and we need to somehow find the time in between our clashing shift patterns to pack our belongings, hire a van, clean and vacate... Then there's the endless paperwork that comes with buying a property and not to mention the financial strain. 

My brain hurts!! I'm going to get some sleep...

Apologies for the whingy ramble, but I guess brutal honesty is better than making out that my life is perfect all the time, like so many bloggers are guilty of doing ;)

Have a great weekend and once again thank you for the love and support.

Lydia xxx